always.

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

i am soOoOo irritated today!

today is such a bad day manx.

and my eyes hurt.

my contacts lars.

dno why.

broke into pieces.

den got stuck in my left eye.

shyt.

today is teacher's day cum be urself day.

wore POA shirt with jeans skirt to sch.

weird.

n HOT.

but i dun care.

the performance was not bad.

Imran singing was GOOD!

the hip hop thingy was not bad.

peiyu is so chio!

that guy that dance the 'lead' for hiphop shuai dai le.

lols

nvr knew that ms poon singing was so damn nice!

chao hao ting lors.

omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am pissed off with myself.

i hate myself like this.

this isn't happening.

sucks manx.

saw kor and my cousin.

she cant recognise mi.

-.-

aft that went back ats.

waited for awhile b4 quite a few ppl frm my klass came.

saw roy!=)

n doreen came back!

aniwae.

talked to lin lao shi.

den aft much lingering around.

went to ps.

with jas,jie,tc.

we took mrt.

ozy,shi yun dey all took 162

jie left/right shoe de heels the rubber thingy dropped out.

make it hard for her to walk.

oh yah.

ozy piereced his ear.

kewl.=)

GUYS ARE INDESISIVE.

we wanted to watched movie.

but last min dun wan.

went with roy,jas,tc n jie to heeren to take neos.

roy was extremely tired.

so was i.

den we went hme.

dun feel lyk toking too much today.

i think it sucks.

why am i bothered by this.

since you both can talk together so happily as frens.

why can't we???

what the ~~fcuk~~ is wrong with people nowadays.

i hate you

i love my attitude.

sianx.

can't be bothered.

i feel like locking myself at home.

and just let out.

hah.

i cant be bothered what ppl sae le.

you both can do wadd you all lyk.

i do what i wna lyk.

f c u kkk.

sorry for the negative aura today.

n the vulgar words.

thks roy!

i LOVE the present.=)

esp the panda!

i know that you are lying to me.

don't try to fake me.

i m NOT stupid.

dar, i LOVE you.

i will always be there for you.

will always be there to lend u a listening ear.

muackx.

wo yong yuan zhi chi ni.

i am jian!

and selfish!

whatever!

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

sigh.
now in sch com lab blogging.
during chemistry lesson.
today ms yip nvr cum so nvm
yeah!
today ms lee yen yen/yan yan last lesson with us =x
sianx.
today so damn tired.
ytd slpt a 11.30pm =x
thinkig what to wear tmr wibx dar n jies.
sad.
haix.
got mood swing siax.
feel that he is much sadder now.
like xiao bu chu lai lyk dat..
all my fault.
but wadever.
maybe this conclusion is jst part n parcel of lyfe.
it wil happen sooner or later.
unless u can realli be so sure of urself that this relationship can still continue over long dist.
can you?
haish.
our klass lost to 3.1 by abit.
lols.
c lars
hu ask retard1 go work.
=x
today semi-finals 3C against 3D.
i wan go watch!
but got choir.
bo bian
ABRSM coming liao.
this friday.
must jiayou!
get distinction.
hax.
i want him to cheer up.
sianx.
i am a selfish brat.
don't allow ppl to get too clse to ppl.=x
arghhhh
stupid headache.

i LOVE me!=D

Sunday, August 28, 2005

sighh.
sad.
we ~~broke up~~.
f c u k
sad bahs
dno
shld i regret?
i gotta tink over.
listen to siao kia no2 advice.
cnt chong dong.
sigh.
maybe i will forget him.
shld i forget codestone?
i dno.
damn luan nau.
wna die le.
dun wna hurt hym one.
saw hym in depression mode ytd.
omg.
i m so jian.
=x
ytd went out.
dno y kip on avoiding hym
dno hau to face hym.
went out until 9 plus.
reach hme 10 plus.
pls lors.
ytd yinghui dey all the skit
damn lan lehs.
mux do until mre natural yi dian wad.
if not i will freak out lors.
i already noe that somethng is fishy.
when dey pulled me n jamie away.
sad siax.
walius.
dno wad to say
wadever.
seeing hym sad.
makes me feel guilty.
=x
bad girl.
i am a bad girl.
went shopping ytd,
kewl!
went wibx jamie jie, yy n dar.
bought clothes frm ebase n POA.
not bad lars.
yy can give comments.
not bad.
lata met up wibx liezhen,zhe n ghim yang.
den chitsy n ying huii.
lols.
damn sianx.
lata dey cuming my huse eat free food.
lols
gtg le.
buaix.

i love dar!

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

today is such a sad day.

i actually ~~cried~~ during maths class.

diulian siax.

all the letter fault lars.

say until so gan ren.

make me so sad.

haish.

all my fault lars.

can't stop blaming myself.

need somtime to cool myself.

think clearly.

sorry dar.

got back e maths test.

got full marks!!!

heh.

oh yah

during el lesson

due to my forgetfulness

stood in facing the whiteboard for 2 periods= 1h30min

sian siax.

waste my time there.

used whiteboard as communication tool.

derek damn pro.

still can use hp de.

lolx.

hcl was ok.

teacher talked about flowers!

got roses and qi li xiang n stuffs.

so nice.

bio test postponed till fri.

shucks.

today chemistry test die liao.

ytd study can't rem anything.

suan le.

ytd was too busy glomming away.

lolx

i am not good in talking out loud in my xin shi u know

so don't know what to say when he asked me.

sigh.

never know that he knew so many things.

haix.

whats the point manx.

i sucks.

TOTALLY.

plunging into total darkess.

where am i?

cheer up shuain shiuan!!=)

Sunday, August 21, 2005

i LOVE korr bermuda's today!
damn nice.
nice colour
=)
hahas
shyt
i just wasted my money in maple
now broke aft buying 50 white pots.
arghh!!!
i accidentally de!!
sianx..
broke instantly.
suan le
sickening
got bio test n chem test on wed.
sucks manx.
i dun wan fail CHEM!!!
sucker.
tmr got e maths test.
okay la
cannot msg until 24 may.
cux bill bao le.
shorie if i nvr reply ani of u.
~~stupid~~ jun hao nvr go pkss again.
hmpf
always laidatt de.

today pksss watch vegetarian thingy
shown us on sort of animal abuse thingy
it was DISGUSTING!
they show us the cutting of chick's beak in order for em not to hurt each other
somemore got what cut away piglet's ear, tail, crush their teeth and castrate em.
so ke lian.
you should have heard em squeaking.
so sharp and painful lors.
OMG!!!
den the people hitting the ducks and chickens cruely.
den they slaughter the pigs, cow n chicken
by hanging em upside down
slitting on their throat
you can see blood oozing out frm their wound
and the pig stil struggling
it even broke free frm the hanger thingy
den was lyk struggling on de floor screaming
it is EWWWWW
omg!
arghhh!!
LOLx..=x
i decided to GO VEGETARIAN!!!
aniwae.
i am sick.
i wan watch qian bei bu zui!!!!!

sayonara-.

Friday, August 19, 2005

lalalalas.
after school chiong back home.
lolx
did not attend the meeting
sianx.
only need 3 ppl nia.
crap
i am the extra one
geez

feel that i am not needed in school at that point of time.

so i just walked off

joo dar n alvin kor too busy singing london bridge le.

hahas.

felt a little pissed off though.

by myself bahs.

got back physics test.

i just passed.

this sucks manx.

all my tests marks sucks like shit.

f c u k

lOlx.

i must jiayou le.

sigh.

neglected as i am may be,

i don't give a damn about it.

l i a r

who says i don't care.

i am just deciving myself.

so gan dong roy sent me the msg

i need to be loved.

who don't need??

it sucks totally.

bye-.

Thursday, August 18, 2005

sigh.
why does he think lyfe sucks?
does lyfe matter so little to him?
does my existance mean so little to him?
if so, then why did we....
nvm
is just that.
i want to tell him
please don't say that you are coming if you cannot make it.
don;t give my fasle hope.
this always happen.
everytym say want go out or meet
den in the end cmi.
haish.

aniwae
now teaching siao kia no2 maths.
made myself confuse alson
LOL!
sianx.
haven't touch on any of the hw.
sighh.
dying here.
forget it.
can't be bothered. =)
hahas.
learnt that maybe my sis is going to chalet.
so gd.
unfair treatment! =x
ss stil haven't do yet.
die~!
ismail siax.
aniwaes.
don't know what to say le.
this is a temporary blogskin.
sayonara.

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

haish.
i find it a joy to talk to my ah gong aka siao kia no2.
funni.
everytime quarell the.
ahahahas.
why will i feel sad if he doesn't msg me or chat with me?
waiting for his msg has become part of my everyday lyfe.
what will happen to my lyfe if i lost him?

now waiting for joo darr to send me ss.
don;t know whether can make it anot.
sighh.
must cry in front of siao kia2 tomorrow!
hmpf.
who says i can't do it.
rahhs.
btw,
this is just a temporary skin.
just found it nice. =D

today stayed back after school
went market eat firs.
saw alvin, retard they all.
later interview mr tan chee seong.
found out that he is not bad one when you talk to hime face to face.
really! i am NOT kidding!
he even invited us to his office(air-con!) and sat down and let us interview him.
not bad.
after that went to com lab to type jamie's article and surf net.
took quite sometime.
discovered that hongwei got blog
and erina discovered that he still likes *ahem*
LOL!
after that went back home.
he pei me go bus stp.
saw dewei in 132 bus.
chat for awhile
den went home and play maple. =x
lOlx.

i seriously think that there is something wrong with me.
can't decide on what to do.
chang tong bu ru duan tong.
true but i really don't know
feel like escaping
but i know i can't
got to face it sooner or later.
sigh.
well. whatever.
mango pudding is dead according to darr.
so is my heart and feelings.
can i ever feel that feeling again?
should i or should i not?
sigh.
this is so irritating.
prepare eyedrops to cry in front of siao kia2 tmr!
see what can he say.
but then waste my eyedrops siax. =x
anyway,
good luck to kai ming, lie zhen, jim, thiam jin they all for their physics test tmr!
jiayou bahs. don't ever fail it . =x
must chiong biology tmr!
anti-hw!!!
can't be bothered.

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

anti headache and pressure! this sucks manx.

it simply sucks.

i hate myself.

all my fault can??

today went causeway pt with yy, joo dar and gab to borrow bk and buy kor present.

but joo dar could'nt find the shop despite walking round the while causeway pt.

spent sometime in library.

a malay pri sch boy accidentally kicked until me. damn pain lors.

hurrs..

went hme when they went to eat.

took mrt to yishun.

switch bus to 855.

wait for the damn bus so long.

today test on physics.

die!!!

no time do finish!!!

suan le...

having severe headache today.

frm ytd pain until today.

stubborn me refused to eat penadol or see doctor despite me being sic.

got back el compo and compre.

sucks.

nxt wk got chem tests.

feel like giving up on everiything.

thanks to siao kia no2 aka ah gong for the advice.

(dun say i nvr acknowledge you hors)

but i truly don't know my feelings.

feel like ending everything.

widh that all pressure and worries will disappear.

be happy again.

sad

...

......

...

i need someone who really have this experience to tell me.

what the heck should i do??

maybe single is the best way.

sigh

this just sucks..

lee yen yen sucks too with her report.

saw zong yang today.

hmm.

turned very tanned.

quite surprised thou.

he thought retard was my stead!

LOL!

go back ats!

was glad that doreen at last wanted to go back ats.

wheex~!

prata rawkx!

jian fei cum cut hair!!!

jiemuii rawks~!

p.s sorry dar if i had copied ur style of writing and stuff. change of mood.=x

Friday, August 12, 2005

haix..dee ~~ulcer~~ in my mouth dere damn pain lors..sianx..kip on coughing sumre..nau doin chem report..wad strategies???shyt hell...sumre my sis now crying to go in com to play maple..hurrs...sadd...damn chao siax...sighh..nxt wk stil got tests!!arghh..cant stand it manx...de teacher is out to kill us siax...mux jiayou for o lvl chi le...STUDY!!!sho happi!2dae wyy nvr dao mi..hahas..sumre he go tok to mi..ahahahas..happi..lalalas...2dae jim n zhe plus junrui pei mi eat lunch..hahas..tokin abt soccer match n de volleyball match against xinmin lors..heard dat our skool soccer lost to riverside until ermx quite li pu lars budden ish betta den last tym..now tv tokin abt branded goods n stuffs..sigh..i m soOo pissed off wibx my sis...crap...sick le lars..i wan die le...maple maple..comics!!argh!!!sucks...

yong yong wen sucks..no tym write finish de last few words..lOlx..sho cao cao liao shi lors..den got ss source-based test..wrote loads of crap...wheex...go slp lars alvin korr and gab..tired still cheng...tink u all superman arhs..lOlx..dun tire urselves out lars...tink of my birthdae present!!tink tink...

okayy..i m now here to SCOLD mdm tOng..she is sho damn sucky okay..wad daa hell..kip on STRESSING that we are TRIPLE SCIENCE CLASS..sho what?!?TRIPLE SCIENCE CLASS not students arh?we are NOT robots okay..n don't u EVER treat us lyk one...wth lors..she was lyk COMPLAINING abt our klass back door the SPOOK word..i lyk dat word ALOT lors..den sae wad will create a negative arora in our klassrm n stuffs..say wad TRIPLE SCIENCE CLASS MUST have and SHOULD have a good environment to study in..pls lors..de klassrm painting ish to decorate our own klassrm de lors..initially dey oso nvr sae anithn..now paint le den tok cock...walaux..xiang le jiu qi...sumre SPOOK isnt a bad word lors..this is STYLE..it goes to show that how the school DOESNT have any taste...god...PLUS..me n joo dar DID NOT run back to the classroom at the sight of her okay..we are NOT AFRAID of her for HER majesty information..we just went back because 3.3 got teacher inside n i cldn;t take my ss stuffs..n it is only POLITE to open the door and then close the door behind u aft goin in..pls lars..doesn't mdm tOng our VP has any manners depite her MANY years of being a teacher and a SINGLE PARENT????wtf lors...can't stand it manx..STOP using TRIPLE SCIENCE CLASS this term to ya wo men...do all the teachers noe dat TRIPLE SCIENCE CLASS means more subj to study, more hw n more stress??n now dey r giving us unnecessary stress n trouble in this MINOR matter..so wad if this yrs TRIPLE SCIENCE CLASS is weaker den de past few yrs?does dat give her de right to BLOW HER TOP OFF at us whenever she wants to?chey! i dun give a damn manx..and how can she EXPECT us to paint the classrm IMMEDIATELY aft she told us to paint..we stil nid to tink of de design, where 2 get de paints n stuffs rite?is not lyk she just say paint and we can straight away paint over laidatt..pls lars..common sense lors...so OLD already still dno..shi bai manx..dno how she became the VP...VP sumre!!! i m soOo angry at dat point of tym..sick and tired of teachers using TRIPLE SCIENCE CLASS=BEST CLASS (for the teachers) as an excuse to torture us..

Thursday, August 11, 2005

hAPpi belAted birthdAe to alvin korr..=Pp

hAppi birthdAe to thiam jin ah gong..x)

sianx..dat guy damn dao siax..i oso lars..an eye for an eye..2dae assembly damn lame siax..lOlx..but quite funni bcux of junrui..hahas...2dae veda nvr dum..got 2 periods free..i wan baq my $15!!!!arghh...dat skol go kop my money n die die oso dun wan gibx mi baq..hmpf..2dae lai lai fa huo again..crap siax...go point at mi for wad??shyt hell..hmpf...chionging ss nau..sarkk..yeah!!!a maths test postponed to nxt mon!!mre tym study..i wna read comics!!!!

Monday, August 08, 2005

hApPy nAtiOnaL dAy~`wheex..

now in my cousin huse blogging..sigh..had a quarallel wibx retard..shit..wad has happened to us?i noe i cant take back all de words dat i had said..those sacarstic n shit stuffs but it is all facs lors..i m jux saying wad i feel..if he doesnt forgive mi..nvm..but it will onli seem dat he doesnt cherish our yrs of frendship..i m sorry if i had offened u in any way but i nvr regret wad i had said to us..not now, never in the future..i m jux sick n tired of seeing u both frenship suddenly turned sour overnite without even a good reason or explanation...haix..its all my fault can..if it really doesnt mean to u having one or two mre strangers, by all means go!do wad u lyk..i cant be bothered liaox..jux make sure dat u dont regret wad u do now...crappo n shyt..

sick and tired`

Friday, August 05, 2005

i am so pissed off with retard1 the zhuai factor. can't stand seeing their relationship so jiang. like strangers like that. pls lars..at LEAST explain or tell why you are doing this to gab ~~darling~~ lar. haiyo...WANG YEE YEW!!!i DEMAND a VALID reason frm you!!!and hor...must give me 10 good reasons why you don't wna watch movie with us..nvm..give you discount..9 enough le..hurrs...my sis wna use com..idiotic..buaix...

i am glad that you shared your joy and happiness with me..thank you..=))

love ya`!!

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

yeah!!NOMAD ish over!!lOlx..

well..hmm..lets see..the prob has been solved not totally but most of it..yuppx..not sho stress nau..not much headaches liao..got alot of hw haben do siax..omg..i qian alot lehs..sumre de skol stil owes mi $15!!!arghh!!!my pocket money..i am broke liao lors..dey wan mi starve to death izzit?lOlx...tests tests tests hw hw hw..hurrs...cant stand it..

2dae stay baq help dar to do his bk review..haix..dno wad to write siax..den chat wibx hym 4 awhile b4 goin 2 central popular wibx jies..i m sOooo full today..dno why oso..kip on eating n eating..mux jian fei le..ohh yahh...2dae chi period..Arghhh..damn diulian..sing until damn soft n out of tune sumre..i cant reach lors plus de song ish quite hard to sing..haix..thks seok wei for accompanying me to go up to sing...dun bother abt it liao..yeoh yuan de song quite nice..not bad..her singing ish oso audible..unlike mine..sighh..sho demoralising..suan le..dere will stil be chances...

suddenly pop out ALOT of tests lors..geog, ss, bio, el, physics....wan mi DIE izzt...dno wna learn goe n ss anot..c firx bahs...

changing skin soon...cant be bothered to update my blog too often..nobody sees it aniwae..heh..

muackx!